birthday song

[Lyrics] I yearn for happiness, just like everyone else And this is a feeling that I cannot simply escape nor obtain No one wants to be unhappy, yet not all can find what brings them joy Fighting for that one, that one singular seat, that we all want in life I can't even honor the lives that were lost Without showing any emotions that are not envious Standing here, pretending to grieve while showing, envy toward the dead Silly thoughts I know, so I'll just sing a song, to anyone, with sorrow and depression Papa and Mama's love gave the gift of life Surprising that I made it 20 years, when will this stop How many had loved me How many have I hurt, and will continue to I do not know, I don't know, what the answer to that is Someone who wanted to be, chosen in life Might have found and seen the colors of light, Oh how I am envious Here I am still searching, Will I ever find it Caught between wanting to live or to die, suicidal Thoughts, again and again, all at once, thoughts pouring in Right now, somebody’s birthday is today, but it is also the anniversary of your death day I still recall whenever taking a bath, until one day I'll probably forget about it all Holding my last breath, thinking that I could finally end it all, but then I went and exhaled So I'll just, keep singing this one melody Wanting to find a reason or a place to belong in Without even knowing the reason for being born So tell me? So tell me? So tell me? So tell me? So tell me? So tell me? Happy Birthday Happy Birthday UnHappy Birthday To you Happy Birthday Happy Birthday UnHappy Birthday To you I can't even honor the lives that were lost Without showing any emotions that are not envious Standing here, still wishing to think of living I want to live, I said I don't want to die, no Thoughts Again and again, I screaming out these emotions Someone who wanted to be chosen in life Continues to keep on going in a world that will not bend Always searching for a place to belong in Tell me to live, please, I don't want to die Caught between emotions of wanting to end it all or to live For the life that was born, it’s a miracle So at least Cherish it, Cherish it Perhaps one day I could learn to maybe love myself Then one day, I would not mind waking to another morning Happy Birthday Happy Birthday UnHappy Birthday To you Happy Deathday Happy Deathday UnHappy Deathday To you